If You Cried Me A River, I Would Save You From Drowning In It.

If you cried me a river, I would save you from drowning in it. That's the first and last two lines of a song I wrote in seventh grade. It's called Hero. Cliche much? Yeah, I know. I wrote it for a guy that I used to like. When I mean like I mean head over heels infatuated. I did everything for him. I even changed for him.

I changed my look, my "sight on life", I even changed my favorite hobby and the music I listened to. I have changed since then though. I have a more optimistic sight on life but everything else is the same. Well, my look is similar with the exception of the more bright uplifting colors. But like I said everything else is the same. He changed me. I'm mad at my seventh grade self for letting a guy dictate my life but in a way, he opened my blind eyes. He got rid of the blindfold and now a real smile is plastered on my face, not a forced fake barbie-ish one. I actually used to think I loved him but I guess I loved how he made me change. I love the new me now. I'm not as stupid and he helped me figure myself out. I don't look in the mirror and ask myself "Who am I?" because I know who I am because of him. And for that I'm very grateful but I doubt I would ever admit that to him. I haven't talked to him since seventh grade. Yeah, two years. But I will always remember those words that changed my life forever. "It's a really good song." He may not know it but that phrase. That line was the reason why I started writing songs. Started loving lyrics and started loving music. I used to be annoyed with music. I'd rather watch TV but now I would rather listen to Matchbook Romance or even Ryan Cabrera.

Everyone has that time that opened up there eyes to reality. Their first beginning. Before him, I was living a 13 year chapter in my life. A never ending chapter or more like prologue to my life. But now, because of him, an old crush, I'm living life with each day being a new chapter, an exciting chapter, and life could never be so imperfectly perfect. If you cried me a river, I would save you from drowning in it. I never cried a river because he saved me before I ever needed to.