Sunday, January 31, 2010

One Wish.

I wish you felt the same way I do.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

formspring.me

Good smiley or bad? ---> :)

Dull smiley
(: <---now THAT'S a smiley(;

Ask me anything, tell me anything, make me smile(:

D:

Why does everything have to change?

formspring.me

Ask me anything, tell me anything, make me smile(: http://formspring.me/hiddensmiles

formspring.me

HI?

You seem confused. Eat Chinese food, it will clear your mind(:

Ask me anything, tell me anything, make me smile(:

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Simple Words Can Make My Day(:

I got a nightmare too. it was when i was awake and realized you werent by my side ;D

Those were the words I got in a text from my best friend, the one I have a crush on. It made me smile and thinking of that got me through everything today. The sad part...he doesn't mean any of it. It hurts to look at those words and know he was just joking. It makes me cry to know that someday, there will be a girl these words are meant for, and they won't be me.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Dear AV,

Despite every rumor spread, every bad thing said about you, I will always care. And no matter what, I will defend you against what they say. Even if you’ve made me cry a billion times and even if you don’t want me in your life. Because although I’m not a part of yours, you’re definitely apart of mine.

Friday, January 8, 2010

My New Glasses(:

I was sad because I wish things were back to the way they were when I was talking to AV but M.B. made me remember something.

If AV were still my project, I wouldn't be close to M.B. and he is the one that I don't think I can ever live without. Not only is he my crush but he's my best friend. The person I can completely rely on. The person who has always been there for me. The person who doesn't like me back but is sweet enough to not my feelings ruin our bond(:

M. B.'s Reaction

I told him.

oh yeah
i like you

wait what?

soo what's up?

nothing

That was pretty much what I did. I told him and changed the subject. He later said to my friend that he forgot his initial reaction. It's funny, things are back to the way they were before but with him knowing something...weird. I'm glad we don't have any awkward moments though.

Looking Back

I want to go back to that month we spent knowing each other. It was full of happiness, laughs, and tears. It was full of things I didn't want to end.

He's out of my life now and I miss him. I only see him in 1st period and I pass him in the halls, looking at him in the corner of my eye. I always wonder what it'd be like to talk to him again.

He's an amazing person, the best mistake I've ever made.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

M. B.

As stupid as this sounds.

I'm tired of waiting for something that won't happen.

I'm going to try to get over him.

How? Well there's one thing I have to do first.

Tell him(:

What's he going to do? Ignore me, like me (doubted), or ignore my feelings and keep our friendship. I prefer the last thing over the first. After all, I don't want to lose my best friend.

I hope all ends well. I mean truth is the best policy right?

Friday, January 1, 2010