Dear Diary,
You know how many independent women say they don't need a guy to live? Well, guess what. I'm one of the majority that do. Pretty sad, huh?
Today, at the game, he wasn't there. And I sucked like shit. I kept missing the birdie and making it hit the net. It's ironic how I was okay but now it's getting worse. I used to think that it was nothing. Just a crush, nothing big. Apparently, it isn't. I haven't gotten over him. I can't look away. Hell, I can't even stay away.
And I keep wondering. When? When will it stop? When will it go away? It shouldn't be like this. Life in high school was fine until he showed up in my life. It hurts like hell. And the worst part, I need him. I can't do anything unless I think he'll approve. I can't play unless he is there. I need him
Love Jen
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